Hello there.

-This blog is about us; Connie and Sarah-

We started writing for this blog since we were 16 years old (2017), now we are 18 years old (2019).
We started writing really poorly, we were too busy with school and we didn't have good time management. Plus, we were still living with our parents, so the chances for us to be on the internet all the time is so thinnnnnnn.

You can look at our old post here! (or not... pls don't)

I think we just skipped a whole ass year on this blog. Ooppss

The truth is we were busier last year.
So here's what you missed :
Sarah moved to another school while I stayed at my old school.
It sucked that I can't meet her frequently, but it was the best for her... for us actually. We sat for our big exam last year, so we needed to focus on our academics and pay more attention in class.

AND NOW, WEW finally a wave of calmness overtook us after we graduated high school. We have done our SPM (Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia), now we are waiting for our result, which will be released on the 14th of March.

GEEZ- exiting high school was fun, really, but what I don't like is going back to school for literally only half an hour (or less) in our uniforms (idek where it is now) to get a piece of paper with our (not so good) results written on it (to haunt our entire lives).

Let's stop the throwbacks...

SO... 2019 HUH?
$ARAH with a dollar sign S is now a LEGAL bitch who can drink and drive (but not at once of course).

17 year old me always imagined a dank, cash-money, free life when I hit 18; I'll just hope for it to come when I'm 19 (or maybe just lower my goddamn expectations)

That's all for now, welcome to our Blog!

WHo is shE?

I know this one person.


This one person is my best friend, my English teacher, my partner in crime, my priority, my everything.


She has the best shoulder for me to rest my head on, she has that million dollar smile that can make me go from 0 to 100 like no one else would, she has the best hand to hold because we intertwine each others fingers so well. She has the best scent that no one can compare to, including myself. Her presence makes me feel at ease everytime and I like that.
She’s one of the reason why am I still living. She is something else. She is not just a person, she's a star because she fills my mind like the stars fills the night sky, so many of them. She’s like a drug to me, I am so addicted to her and it hurts me so much. She’s the only friend that I have right now. She’s cute and super pretty but she never realises it, no matter how many times I’ve told her. She’s like my personal therapist, motivating me like no one else will. She’s like my mother, telling me what to do every time I’m lost. She would sacrifice all her time, her energy, her money and herself, just to make me feel happy, while I actually just wanted her attention. She understands me like no one else have. She is something that I can never stop thinking about, she’s in my mind 24/7.

Every promise that she made makes me want to live this life over and over again. Every sound that she had made, makes me feel superb. I like it when she notices every little thing that I love. Every touch she leaves on my body, like touching me mindlessly when we’re watching movies, are one of the best little things that I love about her. She makes me feel lovable, even on my bad days. I really like the amount of patience she has towards me because she slows down this world that is going way too fast. I like it when she texts me first in the morning when the sunlight is slow-dancing through the curtain and they’re barely waking.

I love her hugs. Her sudden hugs are the best. Every hug from her is the best, actually. I just love every single hug that she gave.

I know that I am not good in everything, but with her everything is like a fantasy.

She deserves to do anything that she loves. Thank you for the sacrifices that you have made for me, thank you for all the memories that we’ve made together. I am really grateful to have you in my life.

I know you’re reading this, because you are the first person I talk to every moment after an incident, because I truly Love You.

this is actually what happen when you're growing up in reality.

Have you ever felt liberosis? No? Hmm okay, how bout exulansis? Still no? Well congrats mate, I think you’re lucky.

I have felt things like what I just said just now and tbh I am feeling those kinds of things right now. It hurts man, it’s like it is so hard to even breathe. I was born in this world 16 years ago and I am living with 2 of my parents. I must admit that in my opinion, growing up doesn’t mean having fun 24 hours but it was having tons of homework and assignment to finish. Growing up is when you have to accept someone has left and just move on no matter how it hurts. Growing up is when you have to shed your own tears when someone hurt you physically or emotionally.

Growing up is when you have a lover or a crush that will have your heart crushed by them.
Growing up is when you have to keep yourself to listen to music more than other people that talk bad about you or judge you.
Growing up is when you have to do something almost everything by yourself because growing up also teaches you to have trust issues with everyone.
Growing up is when all you need is a long nap and a cup of coffee everyday.
Growing up is also when you keep on looking at the time because you really wish that you can turn back time when you’re not growing up.

This is actually just a short sharing.
I'll be back sooner :)

Smol Bean is BUSY

Greetings, Fellow Earthlings

Sarah is back at it again with not posting frequently and messing up her schedule :(

Lately things haven't been going all too well but how great is it that i am still living, breathing and typing this as I contemplate the other 99 things I have to do.

OH YEAH Aidilfitri wasn't too long ago, I had a great time hanging out with my relatives for a whole week. It was suffocating me that I had to go out everyday but hey it's not everyday that I have a chance to do that, I guess it's a change of environment.

During the one week holiday for Aidilfitri, I ate a shizload of food and I gained back all the weight i've been trying to lose in a blink of an eye. I also had band practice with some very talented people and in 48 hours we'll be performing our one month's worth of practice! I feel hella nervous because I am but a small anxious girl. Then, the day after the band competition/performance, I HAVE A SPEECH COMPETITION. I'll be the only representative for my school. How darn tootin great.

Next month i'll be hella hella HELLA busy with marching band practice to prepare for Independence Day March around the city.

why do i have so much activities help

I just hope that i'll be able to do everything according to plan. I just need strength, motivation and food.

I shall keep you posted when I actually have the time to sit down and think about what to write next. :) catch ya later <3

this has been a small update from a small bean.

DyIng.

I should be sleeping right now and not doing these quiz thing for our school upcoming education fair next week. actually I should have done it like 2 weeks ago but i am "too busy" and i decided to do it on my 1 week Eid Mubarak holidays. BUT UNFORTUNATELY, something happened and yeah i totally forgot about the quiz thingy and tomorrow is my deadline to pass it to my teacher as it is my date of death.

Well, yeah I AM SORRY if you think that I am that "kind of person" because HEY! I actually did my schedule and goals for this Eid Mubarak break. I just didn't follow on my schedule because yeah told you that SOMETHING happened. 

Okay that's all. Thank you for spending your little time to read this crap. 

Byebye